Live your life to the fullest.

What....should....I ....do.....?

I don't get it. If he wasn't like that the other night, my feelings would still be buried deep down inside of me, like the past year.... He just had to be like that. Right. Retour à la case 1. It's just so frustrating. I thought I was over that part of my life... but it seems like I dived right into it again. Sometimes really, I want my head to control my heart. Choose the person I fall in love with... that would be awesome. Although my blog's title is "Live your life to the fullest", I feel like I'm being such a coward. Maybe I should do something at last.... to make something happen or to get over it.

Don't forget, (if you can) choose someone that will love you more than you love them. It's the only way to be happy.

Update on my business class:

We got our tests back last class and I got a not-so-bad grade, but I feel like I studied SO hard like.... 4 days straight + I had to work... and my grade really doesn't reflect how much I studied. Then, the teacher was like so I need feedback from you guys on how the test was and what I should change. So I literally told her everything I thought about her class, that is, "To be honest, coming to class is really useless because you don't really teach us anything. I'd rather read the textbook and study by myself, which is what I did for this test..." At the end of the class, she was like, "I don't feel bad about what you said, but I don't feel good either" Well I hope you don't... lol.... -___-''
Then I told her that if the only person getting a good grade if the girl with the photographic memory, it's not normal... then that girl was like "Sorry but I studied 4 hours the night before, rewriting all my notes, it's not my fault if you didn't get a good grade. Maybe you should change your studying methods" Well excuse me but my studying works well in every of my classes. The problem isn't my studying, but the teacher and her stupid teaching methods... Guh, I almost cried when I was talking to her urghhhh.

After studying all day today, I watched some episodes of Pretty Little Liars. I stopped watching it at season 3, but I just restarted watching it. Sooooo good. Waaaaay better than The Innocent Man/Nice Guy -.- (Don't kill me Crystal :D) I loled when Spencer said: I'm failing all my classes because of A! I didn't when Mona was A, but I'm even failing physics now! [paraphrasing]

I have to vent on my freaking business teacher. She's such a b************tch. Omg. -.-
She teaches soooo badly and we don't learn anything in class. She just reads off her powerpoint and says like: "Oh you can read that by yourselves, let's skip that. Ok that's important, so it's like this and this and that. Do you get it? If you don't have any questions, we pass to the other slide." She sucks so bad.
At the beginning I chose that class because of the teacher, but the guy RETIRED. So we got stuck with a new teacher. GUHHHHH. I should be studying for the test next week.... which covers 4 chapters.... of 20+ pages each...... Later.
Plus, her exams are F*CKING TOUGH. I usually get around the 90s+ for all of my classes but I almost failed her test....... with 63%. So last class, I asked her if she could do a study guide or something? Or just tell us what to study/NOT study. And she said, with a bitchy tone, No because you just have to study everything. I was just like .........okay... Then she said, Are you stressed for the test? WELL OF COURSE I AM. I fucking almost failed your last test, how am I supposed to not be stressed... Then, she's wondering why we're doing so bad.... maybe because you suck at teaching? Seriously.

And my mom is getting annoying too. I'm working my ass off to get top grades and she's just like: Okay study more and continue getting good grades. Or stuff like: It's a good thing you went to Vanier cause if you went to Mariano, you wouldn't do as well.
Well thank you so much. You're so motivating... saying it's not because I'm smart I'm getting good grades, it's because everyone else sucks. I'm just a bit better out of the losers.

On another note, I bought myself a gift. Just a gift to make me feel good. Everyone should spend some money on themselves from times to times just to be happier. I bought a brush set from MAC. 5 brushes for 68$. Not bad eh! I swear I don't own any of the brushes!! I wanted to buy the 217 blending brush on its own, and it's 27.50$+tx so it's much more worth it to buy the set. I calculated the price for all the brushes separately (like an Asian) and it came up to 168$+tx. Hehehehe. ^^

I should be studying business... Fuck that. Leave it for tomorrow.

Some tips to win against the battle of procrastination:
1. Get started.
2. Stop believing your own promises.

Ah. After watching Wongfu's new short, it made me realize how much I miss being in love.
Although sometimes it hurts, the happiness it brings makes up for it.

One of the greatest gift we have of being alive is the ability to give, receive, and even lose love. 

It's been so long... almost a year.
Recently, my friend asked me something about my other friend, who's one of my best friends, if she was okay or something because she saw the stuff she wrote here. I said yeah... but then, I felt uneasy... what if she wasn't okay, but I didn't know about it because she didn't tell me. I dunno. Kinda felt betrayed? It was like that time. Worst thing is to know something about your best friend through a person that practically doesn't know her... It's like that other time, when we went to Vancouver and that girl told us something about our best friend that we didn't even know. I think I cried. We were in a bus. So it lead me here. When I read what she wrote, I knew everything she was talking about. And it made me happy, but sad at the same time. Happy because I know she trusts me enough to tell me her problems, but sad because I don't wanna see her like this. Ah... I hope she'll be alright.

On another note, I feel like I don't know what to do later on. My friend was telling me we're gonna get married like... in a few years. We probably know the person by now... Oh god. I hope I'll meet better people in uni because right now... Forget it.

My brother is getting married next June. We're going to China and then, I'll go to Korea alone. I'm kinda scared, but caaaaaannot wait! It's like... my current goal. My friend said I could live at her place. Yay!
But, what if I don't meet him? My friend told me there's 0.0000000000001% that I will. Which is really sad. Nonetheless, I have the feeling this is gonna be the best vacations everrrr.